for being “let go”.

I recently went for a walk through some ups and downs, and I mean that both figuratively and physically.

As I step from one season into another, where God is calling me out of my position at Adventures in Missions, and into new ministry and partnerships, I’ve found myself needing to take many walks outside alone, mostly to clear my head, but also to learn how to dream again.

On this particular day, my walk began much like any other, until I realized I could see and hear more clearly. What I mean by that is the trees and colors around me were more vivid. I heard all of the birds in those backwoods of Georgia tweeting and the scurry of little animal feet upon the crunchy leaves beneath the pines.

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I hardly bothered to flinch when dogs would jolt up out of their yards from a deep sleep, barking instinctively at me, the intruder who was passing their people’s house. I was in a daze…a trance, almost…fighting for peace as I traipsed through my neighborhood.

As I marched, I noticed a couple out in their yard together, enjoying the beautiful day. What struck me about them, though, was they were both participating in two very different disciplines: one, the man, was actively tending to the grounds of their property, aerating it with a special machine he pushed before him, followed by a machine he drug behind him, sowing seeds into the newly aerated and tilled ground. He paced back and forth meticulously, one foot after another, until every inch of his lawn was tended-to.

The woman, however, was actively resting. She sat in the shade on their porch, glancing up from her book occasionally, and I could see the rise and fall of her body as she breathed slowly. She’d allow herself to be distracted by something, it seemed, for as long as she needed, before pulling her attention back to her book. To me, she seemed utterly at ease.

But these two have something important in common: they were both participating, and they were both active.

flowers.

 

The world often tells us we have to be going and doing and planning and scheming. And while there’s truth there, in each of our life purposes coming to fruition, there are still other things we must tend to. It may seem typical to some of you–the man of the house hard at work, while his woman just sits and hardly bothers to help. But I am learning there is so much discipline to be found in rest, so long as we don’t use it as a cop-out. And discerning when to rest…well maybe that’s at the heart of the discipline altogether.

This week, I’ve learned more about myself than I have in a long time. And it’s been exhausting {because I haven’t rested when I should}, but incredibly beautiful nonetheless.

What I’ve found is God is simply saying “Daughter, choose.”

Doors are opening and closing left and right, and I must show up to each day with active purposes and disciplines. But when I find myself growing weary and tired, I physically sit down, which is to mimic what Christ did at the right hand of His Father: this action alone declared, “It is finished! The work here is done.”

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I know my season at Adventures in Missions was not in vain. While they’ve had to cut back their staff by a large percentage due to financial analysis and conclusions, I’m not hurting. While some of their recent decisions have stung and confused, I’m not bitter. Why?

1. We serve the same God. From now until forever. Period.
2. I’ve  learned more in the last two and a half years than I can fully express to you here, and that is invaluable to me. And while my severance was abrupt, it was not unexpected. God has been preparing me in so many ways the last few months, and ministering to my heart about these upcoming changes.

He’s given me peace like a river, and I cannot wait to share even more about what’s ahead!

SPOILER ALERT: it involves a new job, new dreams, new financial goals, a new business, a new personal website, and maybe {dare I say it…} even a new location. {comment below on where you guess I’m headed. Winner gets a surprise gift from yours truly!}

I wish I could give you more than this ambiguous update, but trust that I’m still conversing with God. I can tell you I’m beyond excited, and I can tell you I’ll be venturing out into some great unknowns! When I know, you’ll be some of the first to also know.

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So, won’t you join me??
I’m so thankful for your support and love along the way.

Have you ever been “let go” from something…or even have to let go of something or someone yourself?
What was that experience like, and how did you go about it?

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7 thoughts on “for being “let go”.

    • you are the kindest, sweet Savannah! i’m sorry i never got back to your Facebook message, but i’m praying for you, too–knowing He writes the best stories for all of his kiddos.

      thanks for reading. you’re a champ. and if we’re ever roomies, a teepee is a MUST. 😉

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